when i have houseguests, or when i am sad, i tend to neglect this online space of mine, which has been the case for the past several weeks i'm afraid. we loved having my brother and sister-in-law here for christmas and i will share about that this week, but today i'll get the sad bit written down.
a few nights before christmas, our dear sweet doggy ran into the road and was run over by a truck. completely sudden and shocking, she died instantly. i never knew losing a dog would hurt so so much. for years we have been wishing for a family dog and after much searching found carmen on craigslist - she needed a new home and was the perfect fit for us. she was full of energy, jumped hilariously high, loved to swim and chase balls and sticks, put up patiently with a toddler boy and his mischief, hung out with the chickens in the sunshine and loved to sneak into bed with ivy when she thought i wasn't looking. we got her in the spring and were not ready to say goodbye.
we held a ceremony and buriel in the field for her on christmas eve, all writing the things we loved about her on balloons and letting them go. ivy played a song on her flute and i read the poem she wrote (um, sob!)...
a difficult part of life, death. a reminder to hold every moment close to our hearts and live it fully.
the house seems so empty and i keep expecting to see her jump up when i come through the door. we loved carmen so much and will always be happy for the time we spent with her in our family.
she was the best.