this year for my birthday, i planned a simple day at home by myself - my people all had places to go and things to do for most of the day...which normally would leave me feeling alone and dissapointed...birthdays can do that to me (mothers day is also a trigger)...waiting and wanting or expecting my family or friends to 'make' me happy - and while it is lovely and wonderful to get phone calls, lunchdates and cards...i decided that *i* had everything i needed to make myself happy and instead of filling up the day with distractions i had a party for myself. doing yummy luxurious things just for me.
i took myself to my favourite coffee shop for a treat
i sat in the sunshine doing absolutely nothing
i painted my toenails bright blue
i lay on the couch in the middle of the day watching call the midwife (an awesome show by the way) and eating chocolate
i sewed some clothes for myself!!
...and i felt gratitude for having 34 birthdays. it felt really good. good to pour some love out and onto myself. something i find very easy to do to everyone around me but not so much to myself...silly hey?
then my family came home and gave me sweet handmade gifts and a delicious chocolate cake from the bakery. i cooked my favourite dinner and got to watch a movie with my man after the kids went to bed. a dream day.
34 times the sun! not bad at all really...