i'm back from bali, completely refreshed and inspired...and the big news around here is that i bid farewell to nine years of dreadlocked hair !(me in australia a year ago...those dreads were l o n g !)
my wish to let go of my dreads has been brewing for the past year now - something in me needed a shift, a new energy. i've loved having these locks for so many years - they have been with me on my journey into motherhood, creativity, love, loss, growth, travels and moves...they have been such a big part of my identity and i loved the natural beauty of them as well as the ease of having hair that maintained itself. lately i've been noticing a heaviness...literally (they were SO heavy!) and emotionally...many cultures believe hair to be sacred and powerful - and i definitely felt the strong need to let go of the enegry my hair was holding. and so began the letting go...not easy for an emotionally attached person such as moi - nor with the dramatics of my three little ones crying at the thought of mumma without her dreads ("but how will i find you in a crowd?"). slowly over the winter holidays i sat by the fire playing games with the kids and combing, combing (after cutting them halfway...many were down to my bum)...with my little hampster grooming comb from the pet store. true. a LOT of hair and dust and fluff was shed from these dreads...and it felt so so good to be releasing it.
on a whim partway through our retreat, surrounded by so many dear souls for support and a good friend with a pair of scissors, i had the scraggly dreads and hair snipped off ! we were about to journey to the holy springs for our blessing and i wanted to be light and free. it felt amazing! the lightness! and to then go and have my head dipped in the springs felt like a total rebirth...letting go of vanity and years of emotional stuff 'trapped' in my hair, and starting afresh. i always wondered how i would feel the day i let go, and am amazed and proud of myself for the calmness surrounding such a big change.
i started my dreadlocks in thailand, so to be in the beautiful tropics of southeast asia again for the ending of this journey felt like i'd come full circle.
i wanted to honor my release with a little solo ceremony, so i took my bundle of hair down into the jungly greens to look for a place to bury them. my whole centre of balance was different with the weight gone! i felt incredibly joyful and alive walking through the rich rich colours with butterflies fluttering around me - i know, i know, it sounds like i was tripping on something but truly it was an awakening sourced from nothing but nature people! as i was walking i noticed some twisty tree roots with a little hole in them (a gnome home as my children would squeal)...it felt like the perfect spot to tuck my bundle of hair...with flowers and a blessing and some deep healing breaths i left them there.
*i'll be posting all this week about our amazing time in bali. sending lots of love xo